Song #16: Warriors

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"Some men will go in once, twice, even three times. But a warrior is in this for good... 'I'm not going anywhere. This is my place in the battle. This is the hill that I will die on.' The universe is so vast and so ageless that the life of one man can only be justified by the measure of his sacrifice." [John Eldredge / others, Wild at Heart]
"Rise and rise again / until lambs become lions" [Robin Hood]

We live in interesting times as it relates to masculinity. On one hand factors like political correctness and new age pop psychology have asked us to tone it down, making men safe, soft... nice. On the other hand there seems to be a resurgence in the reclaiming of timeless masculine virtues such as moral integrity, leadership, character, decision making, presence, adventurousness and dependability.

The thing is, there are so many traps for men. It's simply not hard at all to give into apathy, boredom, going for the easy lay, quick surrender or waiting on others to do what we would not. I've seen men fall all around me, bodies everywhere from poor choices or a lack of presence; Hell, I've fallen myself. The truth is we all make poor decisions. And there's freedom and grace there for sure. The ultimate question is what do we do then?

Fortunately, I've also been blessed to be surrounded with some key men who have intentionally chosen a life of integrity and uprightness, no matter the personal cost. As John Eldredge has written - most men want to be knights, but most do not want to bleed like one. This song is for those who do.

On a production note, this track won't be hitting the pop charts any time soon. It takes nearly 6 minutes to flesh out and is of a quite different scope than what I normally write (except for maybe "The Attic"). That said, it's a perspective that needed to be shared and it took an epic-sized arrangement in order to give it the weight I felt the subject deserved. I wish I had more than a few short hours this week to give this song more attention, but such are the "rules" of this project.

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LYRICS:

when the bullets start to fly and they will

when the passion fires die and they will

when the storm threatens all that is known, what then?

where are the warriors? where are the men?

 

when the pain casts a shadow on love

when the fruit dangles just within reach above

when all around they're taken down in their sin

where are the warriors? where are the men?

 

and they will be called oaks of righteousness

 

when a wife is growing tired of being used

when she longs to have her heart be pursued

when all hope is drying up once again

where are the warriors? where are the men?

 

while the world looks for a leader to steer,

lesser men are taking shelter in fear

who will rise and go to fight or defend?

where are the warriors? where are the men?

 

and they will be called oaks of righteousness

 

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what's your heart worth to you?

where's your peace of mind?

either way you're going to lose sleep

but you lose less when you do things right

 

we will stand; we will not be moved

we are the warriors

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and they will be called oaks of righteousness

Song #15: Give It Anyway

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Someone once told me: "love is not 50-50; it's not even 100-100. It's 100-0." Maybe. It's certainly noble, and it's the very definition of unconditional love:

I expect nothing in return. My loving you has nothing at all to do with me or my needs, it's all about the betterment of you.

It's the giving - never in spite of or in injury towards self, but rather with any notion of return completely unconsidered.

A friend of mine asked me recently, "What is the fine line between being a devoted unconditional loving partner and a doormat?" I don't propose to fully know how to answer that question or want to unpack it here, but it has something to do with one's intention or motivation. In this song, a couple have been awarded wisdom after many years together doing what Andy Stanley calls "putting your deal before my deal." Everyone at their core is looking out for #1. What is the only way around that while still maintaining long-term relationships? The resolve of commitment and the decision of grace.

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LYRICS:

We're learning to live in grace

We're learning to give when it's all been given away

When the well has run dry, or the tank has no space

We give it anyway

 

Another year, a quicker pace

Another war, an older face

Have things our way and plead our case

Or serve and die to ourselves and finish the race

 

We're learning to live in grace

We're learning to give when it's all been given away

When the well has run dry, or the tank has no space

We give it anyway

 

Because we know; that we could love

and be loved by anyone

It's in our choice; we'll tie this knot

And decide to love, love the one we've got

 

We're learning to live in grace

We're learning to give when it's all been given away

When the well has run dry, or the tank has no space

We give it anyway

 

  And though it often takes hard work to patch up all these holes and splintered cracks

There is a cement that holds, unbreakable that runs along the back

 

We're learning to live in grace

We're learning to give when it's all been given away

When the well has run dry, or the tank has no space

Give it anyway; give it anyway

Song #14: It's Ok

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I've always found it odd to see a couple who were once crazy for one another grow to become enemies in the end. No doubt there are often real reasons for that, but just as often that rage is simply a defense mechanism. After all, if a scorned lover's feelings are not reciprocated, it's easier to demonize the other person than to live with the pain of rejection.

Thankfully at this point in my life, this isn't my personal reality. But I really had fun this week climbing into this character's shoes and stirring up some longing mixed with gritty vindictiveness.  And for some reason with this theme I felt the need to set it to a 60's R&B style - complete with flute and strings.

Waiter, I'll have a plate of Unrequited Love with a side of Bitterness. ;-)

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LYRICS:

it's ok, I get it

this is all for the best

we're just growing in different directions

it is what it is... (I guess...)

you deserve to be happy (you tell me all the time)

I deserve to be blessed

we'll just do that in separate locations

from now on... (I guess...)

 

you have given me your thousand reasons why

we should now give up the fight

but I... oh I

 

I don't know how to give up on you

I just can't put this love up on a shelf as if I'm through

but I guess that it's time to tell you goodbye

thanks for making that easy to do

 

no it's ok I'm not bitter

I'm ok, can't you tell?

(it's just the fruit of your vine makes me break out in hives,

and with each passing day I get colder as well)

 

see I have learned that just to get by

to only look at those things that I don't like

 

I don't know how to give up on you

I just can't put this love up on a shelf as if I'm through

but I guess that it's time to tell you goodbye

'cause you're making that easy to do

 

it's ok, I get it

I'm ok, can't you tell?

Inspiration...

Well, it happened. Total writer's block. Now, granted, it's only Thursday but this is the first week so far where the song hasn't come to me by now. Last night I sat with my guitar and pen for about 3 hours and I finally laid it all down and went to bed.

SO FRIENDS, HERE'S YOUR ASSIGNMENT:

Leave me a message here (or a comment on Facebook) with your favorite or most hilarious inspirational/motivational quote. It doesn't have to be serious or even relevant (Jack Handy comes to mind).

Bonus points if you Photoshop the quote onto a cheesy nature photo and post your creation (Facebook only).

Song #13: Dive In

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"Natural forces flow between two poles. The north and south poles of the earth create a force of magnetism. The positive and negative poles of your electrical outlet or car battery create an electrical flow. In the same way, masculine and feminine poles between people create the flow of sexual polarity." {David Deida}

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LYRICS:

wet from the shower and dancing alone

she hops on the bed there and picks up her phone

she is pecking a text in and painting her toes

slick with a gloss that's between red and rose

 

she laughs easy and often; keeps herself in check

she can slay with a look, or endear with a kiss

she is certainly woman, a hot fired gun

a feminine blessing that glows like the sun

 

and somewhere deep within this man 

where hunger, sex and power begin

a primal passion's begging me to merge

 

and dive in

and dive in

 

I'm a man, I'm not sorry; I am just what she needs

to blow her world open to places she's never been

and she knows she can't play me or fight till I fold

but like a haven or harbor, she is safe here - safe and at home

 

from somewhere deep within her heart

she breathes the strength that I impart

a passion stirs and begs her to merge

 

and dive in

and dive in

 

a force of passion arcs between

creates the sparks we feel and see

the you, the me become the we

we come together and dive in

 

and dive in

and dive in

One Quarter

Well, sojourners - this marks the 13th week in the One Love, One Year project. Hard to believe, but that means I'm exactly 1/4 of the way through. It's had it's challenging moments for sure - both in terms of time and content - but overall I'm still finding that energetic passion each week. Even when the inspiration is lacking it seems there is always an "aha moment" by Wednesday that allows me ample time to pull a song together.

Thanks again to each of you - the Facebook friends, blog visitors and regular listeners - who tune in and support this regularly. I'm not sure I could do it without your encouragement.

Really looking forward to sharing the next track - the hardest rocking of the bunch so far. See you Sunday.

Song #12: Amphetamine

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The character in this song seems to have climatized to a life of loss. Like any of us, of course he doesn't desire brokenness but his attitudes and beliefs attract it time and again. And time and again, instead of dealing with these things head on, he tends to default to two coping mechanisms: self-medication and running away. "Amphetamine" is a dark song about a shell of a man, hardly someone worth admiring. And yet there's sympathy there, knowing that we all deal with loss and difficulty in our own variations of these ways. Part of me wants to scream at him - "it's worth the risk" - but he'll either toughen up and figure that on his own... or he won't.

On a production note, this is the first song so far that I've directly worked with another individual in the creation process. Music college friend, writing partner and excellent songwriter/performer Joe Aielli had the piano intro and idea for this song years ago. We've worked it on and off for a while but I knew when I began this love-themed writing project, this song would have to be revisited and finished.

Oh, and please swing by Joe's page and become a fan of his well-crafted music:

www.facebook.com/joeaielli

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LYRICS:

she called me in and said I'm leaving

just like so many girls before

and once again I think that love, it ain't the answer

'cause what's united can be torn

friends and lovers, ya who needs 'em?

it just hurts too much to say goodbye anymore

well i've got all the ways I need to ease the pain

and they come out to play when it begins to storm

 

I think love is an amphetamine running through my head

just a high that becomes tomorrow's tears

I think love is an amphetamine,

so now I'm on my way until it all just disappears

 

as the dust blows up behind me

I can't think about all the people I left behind

what you call love I call the thing that trips me up

I'd rather move ahead alone and undefined

 

yes, I think love is an amphetamine running through my head

just a high that becomes tomorrow's tears

I think love is an amphetamine,

so now I'm on my way until it all just disappears

 

and when I take the pill I'm standing on top of the world

unconscious to the crowd below

but without fail, in time, I always come crashing down

it lifts me up and leaves me low

 

will i always think love is an amphetamine?

will i ever let anyone draw near?

see I think love is an amphetamine

so now I'm on my way until it all just disappears

you may live in love, but I live in fear

so I'll get the hell on out of here