giving

Song #48: Take Everything

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The essence of "Take Everything" is the offering of oneself as a gift to a partner. This could be seen as a purely sexual song, but my intentions were far wider. This type of offering isn't of the self-effacing variety that is born out of weakness - where one is depleting him/herself as a way to solicit approval. Rather it is an invitation from strength, where no matter how much is taken, one's fullness remains. That takes art and mastery, but I believe it is possible.

as deep as deep as deep as deep as you want to go

it goes down deeper, come on in, seeker

it's free, it's free, it's free, it's free, for just you alone

drink all you want to, i know that you want to

take all that you need

here lies the banquet feast

only when you're full can you leave

 

i want you to have it all

take anything

take everything

push until you've hit your wall

and see that i

have lost nothing

 

i pour and pour and pour and pour

'till you get your fill

but that doesn't phase me, it's all for your taking

so take and take and take and take

'til you can't take more

i promise you baby, won't stop 'till you're shaking

Song #45: Fireball

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I knew that I had come face to face with someone whose mere personality was so fascinating that, if I allowed it to do so, it would absorb my whole nature, my whole soul, my very art itself.
[Oscar Wilde]

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LYRICS:

There are thousands of beautiful girls, thousands of shallow pools,

but with her it's different, with her - she's endlessly cool

I think about her all of the time, I recognize the worth in her eyes

And each time we connect we go deeper than we thought we could

 

She's a fireball, a tempest storm, but I won't quit, no

'Cause I am up for the challenge, gonna show her I can handle it

So let's go, let's go

 

I had started to lose faith in the world,

didn't think that it made this kind of girl

But then she came out of nowhere and changed up all of the rules

It is gonna take a strong kind of man,

To stand firm while she does her dance

And while others couldn't make it, I am gonna prove that I can

 

She's a fireball, a tempest storm, but I won't quit, no

'Cause I am up for the challenge, gonna show her I can handle it

So let's go, let's go

 

I'm longing

to know her heart, to love her flaws,

to touch her body, to shatter her walls

I am all the way in, I won't flinch,

she's worth the fight, she's worth my time,

when you're given a gift, you treat it right

 

She's a fireball, a tempest storm, but I won't quit, no

'Cause I am up for the challenge, gonna show her I can handle it

So let's go, what are we waiting for?

Song #15: Give It Anyway

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Someone once told me: "love is not 50-50; it's not even 100-100. It's 100-0." Maybe. It's certainly noble, and it's the very definition of unconditional love:

I expect nothing in return. My loving you has nothing at all to do with me or my needs, it's all about the betterment of you.

It's the giving - never in spite of or in injury towards self, but rather with any notion of return completely unconsidered.

A friend of mine asked me recently, "What is the fine line between being a devoted unconditional loving partner and a doormat?" I don't propose to fully know how to answer that question or want to unpack it here, but it has something to do with one's intention or motivation. In this song, a couple have been awarded wisdom after many years together doing what Andy Stanley calls "putting your deal before my deal." Everyone at their core is looking out for #1. What is the only way around that while still maintaining long-term relationships? The resolve of commitment and the decision of grace.

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LYRICS:

We're learning to live in grace

We're learning to give when it's all been given away

When the well has run dry, or the tank has no space

We give it anyway

 

Another year, a quicker pace

Another war, an older face

Have things our way and plead our case

Or serve and die to ourselves and finish the race

 

We're learning to live in grace

We're learning to give when it's all been given away

When the well has run dry, or the tank has no space

We give it anyway

 

Because we know; that we could love

and be loved by anyone

It's in our choice; we'll tie this knot

And decide to love, love the one we've got

 

We're learning to live in grace

We're learning to give when it's all been given away

When the well has run dry, or the tank has no space

We give it anyway

 

  And though it often takes hard work to patch up all these holes and splintered cracks

There is a cement that holds, unbreakable that runs along the back

 

We're learning to live in grace

We're learning to give when it's all been given away

When the well has run dry, or the tank has no space

Give it anyway; give it anyway