hope

Song #46: Whatever the Dream

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"Life is just a funny dream,

and someday I'll share this dream with you..."

[Trey Anastasio, Ether Sunday

This week I had the pleasure of cowriting with friend/manager/bandmate Tom Crenshaw, reworking one of his poems into a psychadelic, George Harrison-esque song of hope, cycles and new beginnings.

*Painting by Marc Chagall

PLAY:

LYRICS:

I've been trying to find you,

trying to find you

You've been trying to find me,

trying to find me

All that I'm searching for - is searching for me

trust and we'll see

 

There's a season to come

a season to come

Rain, it follows the sun

follows the sun

Sunshine follows the rain, night into day

trust in this way

 

And if I had dreamed this differently

would it be any easier to believe?

 

Let whatever may come

whatever may come

Dream whatever the dream

whatever the dream

Close and yet far away, near as the end

to where we begin...

 

And if I had dreamed this differently

would it be any easier to believe?

Song #43: What We Want

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I received an email this week from someone* talking about how "failed" relationships help us to know what it is we truly want moving forward.  But more than that, that what we think we want is often a fantasy, a phantom created by our minds. When we're open to new experiences and opportunities, reality has the opportunity to blow away our preconceived ideas.

* Chorus and additional lyrics co-written by Julie Rae Sandifer

PLAY:

LYRICS:

We have been building it up

We hope for something that isn't

We think we know what we want

That is until we get it

 

For it's an illusion that doesn't exist yet

What we want we will know once we experience it

 

We'll never get what we want

As long as we think we need it

The only way it will come

Is if instead we choose to give it (and give it, and give it)

 

For it's an illusion that doesn't exist yet

What we want we will know once we experience it

 

And all of these moments, all of these people, they're teaching us lessons

they tell us more who we are, what's truly important,

they help us measure in seconds… not minutes… or hours

 

For it's an illusion that doesn't exist yet

What we want we will know once we've experienced it

Song #29: Be Free

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There's always another side to the story.

A friend of mine this week reminded me that most "lost love" songs are from the perspective of the one who has been broken up with. What about the one who had to do the heartbreaking?

We often think that the one who ended things is in control and walks off mostly unscathed, but that is far from the truth. It can be a hot mess of emotions for both parties. The irony is - the singer here doesn't hate the person he's breaking up with... not at all. There's still genuine love and concern for the one he's leaving behind. But he also senses that it's not right enough to continue, even as the other person is trying everything they can to keep it from dying.

PLAY:

LYRICS:

don't let yourself believe

this is all easy on me

just because I'm the one who chose to leave

doesn't mean that I missed out on all the guilt and the grief

 

I don't want to be cold but I'm all ice

'cause if I let you in or even just be nice

you get your hopes up

and we both know

that this ain't right

so if it has to be me: I love you, be free

 

the truth is it was killing me to stay

so for now, dear, this is the only way

and though I've nothing bad to say

there's some walls I'm going to have to put into place

 

I don't want to be cold but I'm all ice

'cause if I let you in or just even be nice

you get your hopes up

and we both know

that this isn't right

and if it has to be me: I love you, be free

 

I don't think you're listening to me: I'm done

it was not meant to be, though we had fun

maybe one day you'll see: I still love you...

be free...